Lovesick.

They say that time away from your partner is a good experiance to go through. As my dad put it, "It helps you realize just how much you need them. It helps you realize wether your relationship is a serious one, or the stereotypical teenage one."

I guess I agree with that. I just dont like it.

Meghan is in Cuba, until April tenth. The day after she gets back, Im leaving for BC, on a 5 day trip. So basically, I wont be seeing or talking to her for the next two weeks.

Great. Two weeks to think about how much I need her.

You seriously have no idea how much this hurts. Im sitting here now, maybe 7 hours since last seeing her.... and you know what? I want nothing more then to hold her. And I cant. I feel like kicking something.

Im really happy she gets to go on an adventure. Im really happy she gets to go travelling so much. But deep, deep down, I want her to stay. If there was anything I could do to make her stay, I would do it a million times over. But theres nothing I can do, so I guess Im gonna have to wait out the next two weeks. Whoopity fucking do.

I love her so much. I miss her so much.

I dont need these two weeks. You know why? Because I already know that I need her. I need her more then anything.

"I’ve seen palaces in London; I’ve seen a castle in Wales
But I’d rather wake up beside you and breathe that ol ’familiar smell"

I tryed imagining life before her. I cant.

I just wish she knew that.