Grant's got it down

Carpe Diem = Grant
nathan. lovesick = me

Carpe Diem says:
you dont enjoy her company because you can do anything with her. she is just so amazingly perfect for you and vice versa that she would let you do anything because she trusts you. one critical element that is lacking in most teenaged relations
nathan. lovesick. says:
Exactly!
nathan. lovesick. says:
man, you got it down
nathan. lovesick. says:
me thinks we should hang out in person sometime
Carpe Diem says:
sounds like a plan
nathan. lovesick. says:
and when im with her, it seems liek nothing else really matters. Its like this whole other world I want to escape to.
nathan. lovesick. says:
and then i get yanked back down the minute i step out of her door
Carpe Diem says:
the pure ecstacy that you have with her is so amazing that just being in her presence is enough to bring you from a depressive state instantaneously. words dont even have to be said. its so perfect just looking into her eyes you feel secure and that she is your better part. with her absence brings pain. in her presence its too great for any words.

Grant seems to know exactly how I feel.

Lovesick.

They say that time away from your partner is a good experiance to go through. As my dad put it, "It helps you realize just how much you need them. It helps you realize wether your relationship is a serious one, or the stereotypical teenage one."

I guess I agree with that. I just dont like it.

Meghan is in Cuba, until April tenth. The day after she gets back, Im leaving for BC, on a 5 day trip. So basically, I wont be seeing or talking to her for the next two weeks.

Great. Two weeks to think about how much I need her.

You seriously have no idea how much this hurts. Im sitting here now, maybe 7 hours since last seeing her.... and you know what? I want nothing more then to hold her. And I cant. I feel like kicking something.

Im really happy she gets to go on an adventure. Im really happy she gets to go travelling so much. But deep, deep down, I want her to stay. If there was anything I could do to make her stay, I would do it a million times over. But theres nothing I can do, so I guess Im gonna have to wait out the next two weeks. Whoopity fucking do.

I love her so much. I miss her so much.

I dont need these two weeks. You know why? Because I already know that I need her. I need her more then anything.

"I’ve seen palaces in London; I’ve seen a castle in Wales
But I’d rather wake up beside you and breathe that ol ’familiar smell"

I tryed imagining life before her. I cant.

I just wish she knew that.

How pathetic.

So here I am, at school, in the computer lab, posting on my "blog."

How pathetic.

Its about 12:26 right now. In 20 minutes, the bell shall be ringing and I will be back to the regular routine of sleeping my way through my classes. But until then, Im sitting here in the computer lab, thinking of how pathetic I am for hanging out in the computer lab.

I could be out playing rugby. I could be tripping around school with Lukas. But no, Im sitting here in the computer lab because as far as school goes, I have no life.

Its not like Im a loser or anything.
I just stay disconnected from school. School is the lamest shit on earth.

Im not talking about the classes. The classes are fine. But as far as people go, my school is horrible. Everyone has abandoned me at school, so why should I even bother? All the people that matter to me go to other schools.

Meghan goes to Manning. Brenden, Eric, and Alex go to Massier. Steph and Josi go to some fancy ass french school.

Where do I go? The worst junior high school in calgary. Good ol' TB Riley.

I hate this.

-J.T

Please keep holding on to me

THE SPILL CANVAS

"Valiant"

There's a special place inside my skull
Where your DNA it codes my cerebrum
In full stuttering and drooling
My shredded throat will try to sing for you

What do you say? Would you marry me today?
The moon would gush all inside out
and my nightmares would go away
What do you say? Would you devote yourself today?
Like riding out a sinking ship as it lowers into the bay
Please stay.

The blood collects and flushes out your cheek bones
I've got this secret garden and you are the only one who knows
I'm stuttering and drooling
My shredded throat will try to sing for you

What do you say? Would you marry me today?
The moon would gush all inside out
and my nightmares would go away
What do you say? Would you devote yourself today?
Like riding out a sinking ship as it lowers into the bay
Please.

I'm cutting ties with all the jealous zombies
I need to feel your warm body on me

When the sun goes down and the shadows grow
Just trust in us and forever know
Please keep holding on to me


Funny
This song almost describes how I feel about Meghan

But its still missing something

And I miss her

In Bloom

Im still waiting

Im spiraling right now
and i need to get it out there

I need to write it down

But I cant
Im to scared
Im to pathetic

Worry me

Essay #1 "Dual Citizenship In Canada"

Check this out;
i wrote this essay in 20 MINUTES. Without doing any research beforehand.
Its not amazing, i know
But I think for something written right before bedtime, its pretty good.

"Dual Citizenship In Canada"

The first thing you should know about “Dual citizenship” is what it is. Dual (or multiple) citizenship is when more then one country recognizes you as its citizen. This can occur in a number of ways; For instance, if your parents, grandparents, or spouse were born outside of your residing nation, then you may be considered a “dual citizen,” depending on the country you are currently living in. One of the country’s where this can occur is Canada.
Canada will be the main focus of this essay. Why? Because here in Canada, it is an important issue. It is much debated, whether being a dual citizen is a good thing or a bad thing. I personally believe that it is a bad thing, a point which I will discuss. What are the advantages of dual citizenship? What are the disadvantages? Is it truly worth it?
The first thing that should be understood about dual citizenship is that it has plenty of advantages. It offers many practical advantages, such as social security, and more employment opportunities. Being a dual citizen can also enhance ones feeling of belonging, due to having strong personal ties to more then one country. However, becoming a dual citizen provides many difficulties, some of which may be unforeseen at first.
For instance, becoming a dual citizen is a long, strenuous process. This is due to the fact that citizenship is a very complex matter. In fact, before the Citizenship Act of February 15, 1977, Canadian law limited dual citizenship, providing more ways to gain or lose citizenship then does our current law. Since that date, however, Canadian law has allowed dual citizenship.
However, as said above, having dual citizenship provides many difficulties, disadvantages, and consequences. It is important to understand that the laws that apply to you at any time are the laws of the country in which you are physically present at that time. This can result in many difficulties; for instance, travelling with a Canadian passport and another countries passport can lead to certain difficulties in the country you are travelling to. In some countries, it is illegal to travel with more then one passport, and can lead to a hefty fine.
Some other inconveniences are political; for instance, you may be affected if the country you are a citizen of is involved in a political upheaval. Travelling can become a hassle, due to the this, and the passport issue mentioned above. What applies to one country may not apply to the other; this can cause various problems, including denial of emigration, military service, and even imprisonment due to failure to comply with the laws and obligations of one of your countries of citizenship. As such, being a dual citizen can be very complicated.
But when it all comes down to it, obtaining dual citizenship is a personal choice. It offers benefits, yes… but with those benefits comes various problems and incontinences. It is important to be aware of these disadvantages, especially in an incredibly diverse country like Canada. Personally, I believe that dual citizenship is unnecessary, and overly complicated… and because of it, not worth it. Its up to you, of course... but I would pass on it. Consider these facts; and make the right decision for yourself.

Survey

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1. If you had to label me, what would you label me, and why?

2. Which would you say is my best feature, emotionally? Why?

3. Which would you say is my worst? Why?

4 Which famous musician/actor/political figure do I remind you most of? Why?

5. Which genre of music do you most asscociate with me? Why?